I volunteered to be tested. When they told me I was a perfect match, I felt relief, not fear. Of course I would do it. This was my husband. The father of my children. The man I loved.
I sat by his hospital bed, holding his hand, whispering promises. I told him we would grow old together. I told him this was just a chapter, not the ending. When he cried from guilt, I reassured him.
“I’d do it again,” I said. “In a heartbeat.”
At the time, I meant it.
But life has a cruel sense of timing.

A few months after his recovery, Daniel changed. At first, it was subtle. He grew distant. Less affectionate. Always tired, always distracted. He spent more time on his phone, started staying late at work, claimed he needed “space” to process everything he’d been through.
I told myself he was healing. Trauma does that to people, I thought. I gave him grace. More than grace—I gave him patience, understanding, silence.
Then came that Friday.
I had planned a surprise. A real one. I wanted to remind him that we were still us. I arranged for the kids to stay at my mother’s. I cooked his favorite meal. Candles, soft music, the works. I even wore the dress he once told me made me look like the woman he fell in love with.
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